Believe

I’m Baaacck!!!  Man do I have a story for you.

First, I just want to say thank you for hanging around.  I didn’t know how long I would be gone especially because I didn’t know how I was going to come back.  It took some time just to form these words and write this sentence but God didn’t want me to give up and neither did I.

Y’all, it’s been a while...too long but it feels good to actually connect with you again.  I’m happy to be back.  This is a different time and a different atmosphere but I’m here.

I was gone for a while because I had so much to do.  Why?  I moved!!  I moved to my dream state of Tennessee and I’m beginning the next chapter of my life.  I did it on a whim and I’m so excited I never gave up on myself nor God.  

I told Him I wanted to do this and He gave me the green light.  He already had trust in me but I had to have trust in myself to see this thing through.  It started at the beginning of this year.  I was dead set on moving to another state.  I made plans (in my mind and on paper) where I was going to move, the amount of money I would need to get there and to live, however the “VID,” “Rona,” however you want to say it, showed up and my plans were on halt.  Also, I was in a car accident and my car was totaled and of course, I had to get another car.  I thought moving was out of the cards, but God.  The only thing I needed to do was to believe, to continue having faith, continue to persevere and know it was all going to work out.  All I needed to do was pivot.

I needed to change my sense of direction because where I was headed, where I initially wanted to go was not where I needed to be.  Where I was going was only temporary but instead of going somewhere temporarily, God said, “ Why don’t you go somewhere permanently? 

A lot of times, we want to wait to see what else is out there before taking action on where we’re supposed to be headed.  If God has already set it up for you to receive your blessing, why wait until you’re comfortable?  Why wait until you have everything figured out?

The thing is, I had things planned out, figured out and while a lot of those things happened flawlessly, one major thing didn’t.  That was a job.  I’m not upset, frustrated, embarrassed, anxious.  I’m blessed, confident, excited, happy, faithful, prayerful, joyful, patient.  Even in the words I just used to describe how I feel outweigh the bad.  God has blessed me to get this far and He’s not going to leave me.  I moved on faith and I’m led by faith.  Some people may think I’m crazy but I call it having faith...crazy faith (thanks Pastor Mike).

Having the opportunity to move during a pandemic, not waiting until it’s convenient or waiting until the pandemic is over, not waiting until there are better circumstances, not waiting until my family wants to let me go, which by the way, they didn’t know any of this until a month before I left.  FYI they helped me the entire time...and still are.  

God is the driving force behind all of this.  To do the impossible during an impossible time, have a roof over my head, food to eat.  The best things that happen in our lives, happen in the most impossible ways.  What we take for granted is the best gift.

God wants to show off in your life.  He wants you to know that you couldn’t have done it without Him.  You can plan all you want to but if it’s not for you, it won’t happen.  The plan won’t be executed.  

When people talk to me, they say, “You sound really happy.”  I tell them I am really happy.  This is what I wanted for several years but it wasn’t time yet.  Even though these are unusual times, it was the best time for me.  For God to make a statement.  To tap dance on the Devil’s face.  

This is still a surreal moment for me and I wake up everyday having to remind myself that this was a dream of mine and here I am...living it.  Have you had that before?  A dream, you thought would stay a dream...at least for a few more years but God said, “No, your time is now.”  How do/did you feel?

I want to leave you with what God brought to my attention today, Romans 12:12 “Be happy in your confidence, be patient in trouble, and pray continually.”  Know that He is God and whatever you’re going through, always know that He’s with you.  He’s holding your hand.  Remind yourself daily that you are a child of the most high God.  Remind yourself of Who He is.  Speak His Words over your life daily.  Do not depart from Him.  It’s going to be a bumpy ride but stay in it.  God’s got this.

Love,

Janelle