The season we’re in is still here for a reason. There’s a few things we need to clean out of our lives before we move onto the next season.
Everything has been great with my new job, however things haven’t been great with me.
I have tried so hard trying to be perfect and learn new things right away but it doesn’t seem to pan out that way every time.
I prayed to God asking why am I here? Can I get another job, something better, something different? Can I get something more my speed? This is TOO DIFFICULT. I don’t think this is for me.
I began to disqualify myself. I began to doubt my abilities. I was given this opportunity for more than just getting a job to pay bills.
God provided me this job for a reason. It’s a test.
I was almost in tears because this test has been breaking me down. I wanted God to take me out of this test. It was hard. It was something I wasn’t used to.
I found myself yelling at God to get me out, to give me something else.
During our conversation, He told me, I want you to stay in it. Every test I placed you in before, you cried for a way out. I gave you an out and you took it. It didn’t matter if it was a job or a relationship. You don’t know how to stay in something when it gets hard.
He began to show me visions of what I’ve recently asked Him for and He told me, you can have what you’ve been asking for but I need you to stay in it.
What God did, is what He always did and answered my prayers for a potential opportunity somewhere else. All the while, He shares with me Isaiah 41:10, “Do not be afraid, I am with you. I am your God.” Let nothing terrify you.”
I told God I needed to hear from Him. I needed confirmation that He wanted me to stay in my test and that He’s got me and a total of 5 times I received them.
I chose to not take the easy route and listen to God. I knew that all I needed to do was listen to Him and I would not only receive what I’ve been asking for but I’ll also receive peace. I’ll receive a layer of patience because I didn’t give up when it got hard. I’ll have another layer of understanding and know that when another test comes, I’ll be equipped knowing not to have fear but to continue relying on God and what I’ve recently gone through.