When the pandemic was at its peak, I was in between jobs. I just quit a job that gave me anxiety and depression I never thought I’d ever go through. I lost a strength in myself I never thought was possible. I left that job on prayer and faith. I left it not knowing when or what job I would get next.
In that holding season, I began to look at other jobs and I came across a company that wanted to work with me. A guy working with an agency contacted me and said that the company was interested but he first wanted to prepare me for the next step. The company seemed really great. It was a woman-owned and woman led company. It was something I couldn’t wait to be a part of.
There was, however, something that was standing in between me and the possibility of working for this company.
That something was Microsoft Excel. You’re probably thinking, well shouldn’t you already know how to do that, and the answer is yes. I have a great amount of experience. I even have a great score for it on Indeed. What this particular company wanted was something very specific. They wanted Y-charts or whatever you call it and other advancements of Excel. I remember listening to a message on YouTube in regards to “How to Successfully land a job in 2021.” The young woman stated that if you want to get any job now, in any field, you have to know how to use Excel. You have to know every property there is to navigate Excel.
I said to myself, okay, I can do this. The guy, who was basically my guide before getting an actual interview with the company, coached me on what they were specifically looking for. He told me I needed to study how to do a Y-chart and a few other charts before I can go any further in the process. By the time he was done telling me everything I needed to change about myself to fit into someone else’s mold just to get a job, my strength was gone. I was completely uncomfortable. At that moment, I was beginning to feel like someone I wasn’t.
I don’t know about you, but I can’t play the role of someone else just to get a higher pay. As a matter of fact, in order to get a certain amount of money, I had to be able to execute these particular tasks. It wasn’t worth it.
I told the guy, I wasn’t able to do it. He apologized and said he was sorry because he felt like he pushed me. Even though he did, it was still my fault because I allowed it. I allowed someone to groom me into someone I needed to pretend to be just to make a few extra dollars more than my previous job.
I thank God that He placed in me that urge to say no because after that a few days later, out of the blue, I received a message on my phone about a legit opportunity. I worked for that company until I moved to TN and during my time at the company, I made more money working for that company each week than I did the entire time I would’ve worked for the other company.
I refused to be someone I wasn’t for money when God was the supplier the entire time. He continues to remind me of that each and every day. I want to do the same for you. Listen to your heart. Listen to what God is telling you with where you should go, what you should do, how you should approach a certain situation. Let Him guide you to where you need to be. It may not be glamorous but it’s where you need to be for that particular season in your life.
I hope this encourages you in more ways than one.